Libido of an 80 year old…

Figured I’d write a blog.

Recently, I haven’t had sex. Normally that’d bug me but really, it hasn’t. I don’t even masturbate anymore. It’s just not an urge I get anymore. I dunno if my hormones have leveled out or something but I actually quite like it. I don’t really need to be with someone for it anymore. I can like the person now. (Still with the girl from almost 2 years ago) This all seems retrospectively boring to everyone but me so I guess I’ll make this blog into everything going on and some various ravings.

Been playing LoL a lot lately

Got a group of buddies I had in school that play loads and Skype the whole time so it’s finally become a…fun activity, I guess. It used to be stressful but right now, not so much. One point of contention is that no matter how well I do, (18-6 as Vayne, 10-0 Udyr, 8-3 Udyr) they’ll always pick on me. I mean, a little playful poking is alright but it’s gotten to the point to where it’s all they do. Some nights I just turn off my mic so I don’t embarrass myself trying to think of comebacks to all of their comments.

I’m not too good with conflict. Never understood the purpose of most conflicts. What am I doing? Protecting my dignity? Being a good person is protecting my dignity… not arguing with a bunch of guys over a vidya game.

I know I’m probably taking that entirely too seriously and in actuality, I don’t honestly care. Sort of just an annoying place to be.

I still like the game.

Head back to work Friday

Yup. I’m scheduled 4 days in a row with 10 hour days but I haven’t been to work in a month or two so I could kind of use it. Staying at home is boring. Some days I go out and play tennis all day. And I’m not a huge tennis fan…so that should give you an idea of how bored I get.

I like work.

Girl is leaving for Idaho

She leaves for two weeks starting this week. I’m gunna miss her but hey, her family lives in Idaho and she hasn’t seen them since she was like 12. She’s from Idaho, by the way.

Scholarships & Money

Got 17,000 USD in scholarships. (Dropped a few due to post-graduation expectations, ie staying in Louisiana) Tuition is ~6,000 USD. Dunno what I’m gunna do with th remaining 11,000 USD. Probably just going to save it or use it to pay rent but the business has that more than covered. It’s around an 80,000 USD/year business right now. (Profits shared between me and my dad 70/30, him being the larger shareholder. Don’t confuse that for being publicly traded)

It runs itself. Can’t remember the last time I fiddled with it beyond answering e-mails regarding bugs, etc. Almost feels like that’s my dads way of just throwing some money my way. He’s a great guy.

Speaking of him.

Father’s day

Just hung out with him. It was nice. I got him two toypedos for it. He loves those things. My nieces were punished and he got them off punishment so he could see them. I thought that was pretty sweet. They had emptied their mom’s fridge entirely (around 400 USD in food) and now she doesn’t have food until she gets paid a couple weeks from now. She’s been eating with my mom and dad lately. She’s borrowing my car tomorrow too so…yeah, hope everything goes well with her.

I also didn’t realize how good a coder he was

He was one of the first guys to utilize a computer as a calculator. He got the old batch language to do simple math before anyone else had. Impractical as hell, though. I still think it’s pretty neat. I don’t think he was the first to do it in any language though, he’d be richer if he had.

Trying to learn to video edit…just as a hobby

I want to start making movies for fun. I got a go-pro and stuff for Christmas so I’d definitely like to try and use it. I wouldn’t care much to get famuz or anything. I just want to have a little fun when I get this bored. All I’ve been doing really is tennis, swimming, coding and working on my music. Was thinking of making a few music videos. Not featuring myself but my friends. It seems like it’d be fun.

Stuff like this:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qOW2eEz9cYk

Maybe I’ve got pretty unreal expectations of how fun it could actually be but oh well, there’s always quitting. If you want to collaborate on something I’d be happy to give editing your stuff a shot. It can be gaming related if you want.

I feel like I make an impression

Girls I was with 3-5 years ago still try to talk to me. Makes me a little bit happy they still care. This girl I wrote about in some other blog ages ago sent me her book looking for criticism and I read it and she was really happy I told her it was good. And said it was “real criticism.” I liked it.

Made me happy. I don’t much care either way but it does raise my self-esteem as a result. I’m not a great looking guy or anything so I’m pretty sure it’s my personality, which is even better.

I want kids…real bad

I really do. I want to get married and have kids…. right now.

Still too young though I guess.

Anyways, hope you enjoyed it.