happy freakin holidays!

this is a freestyle blog

meaning i improvise. so theres no specific topic. so the title is totally offtopic. i guess

today is a holiday in taiwan. i dont know what its called in english, but we eat rice with shit wrapped in leaves. lol

day off today. no school. i got flu. my throat hurts like fuck. its gotta be the best day of my life. at least… its better than those starving villages in africa or something. my final exams are next week. i have a D in my precalc class. so pretty much im fcked.
im studying right now and i feel as if i just wasted day off school.'

i felt as if i shouldve went out with the girl i like. cuz we like go out and chill together. its like one of those simplistic hangouts that are fresh. not like hanging out with people you always hangout. cuz thats just whack. you see, i dance and i hang out with mostly dancers. only shit we ever talk about is dance and how bad this person dances. but hanging out with her is a lot more fresh because we both talk about stuff we dont usually talk about. its like one of the things you gotta get used to.

and yes, there are awkward silences whereas we have no idea what to say or chat about and we just stare at stuff. i hate those, but hanging out with her, i have the least awkward silences occur compared to other girls i've chilled with. also, shes soooooooooooooooo pretty, holy crap.i think thats what makes her special for me. shes not sumptuous either, which makes her such a great person.

apparently, she likes this alumnus who i have no idea if he likes her back.
another day wasted.
but i'm hanging out with her thursday!
hopefully

we share alot of experiences and gossips. she feels comfortable around me. whenever she is languid she comes to me. she makes me feel wanted. she is the very few individuals who actually takes me seriously. alot of people think im always joking around; i dont blame them, because freshman year and sophomore year was my most retarded years. the latter was only alittle bit better. im pretty sure she only sees me as a really really good friend. cuz whenever we chat, she always tell me that she likes me because i am a really good friend.

that flatters me.
that makes me happy.

about four days ago, my throat began to irritate, but i ignored it. two days ago, it got high fever and headaches and shit. she and i had already decided to eat lunch together. when we i saw her, and got our lunches and sat down, ate, chatted. all those symptoms were gone. i felt as if i was never sick at all. i felt perfectly fine. that feeling lasted for about 3 hours. it was amazing.

now that led me to this article i read couple weeks ago. scientists scanned a brain of a man who is, that time, in love. the results of the brain scan showed that the brain interacted differently from a brain thats content. couple months ago, when she was still going out with this guy and we werent really good friends, we were just regular friends. a friend came back from the states. she was an ineffably awesome person, i hung out with her almost everyday, shopping, and walked her home. as i went home, tired like a fuck. i fell into a high ass fever. that day was also the day that she was going to depart from taiwan.

when she called me, my high ass fever went down. i was like oh shit!

iono, i thought that was interesting how human emotions affect the conditions of sickness.

ok