One thing?

As much as I'd like to state ALL the shit that I'd like to change about myself, I suppose there's really only one thing that I really, really want.

I want to change the fact that I was born into an Asian family.
I've always been the different one in my family. I'll explain this in greater detail.

The oldest sister in my family, Christine, is 10 years older than I am. She's 24, and I'm 14.
She's always been the over achiever, studies REALLY hard, and has always gotten straight As, ever since she was little. She passed her MCAT on the first try.
She once got a Double A+ on an English assignment and got an award for it at an assembly. Naturally, she think I'm a failure, I'm spoiled, and I don't work hard enough. She's working at a technology corporation right now at a company called QLT with her own office.

The second oldest sister, Helen, is 8 years older than me, and she's 22.
She does a lot of sports and exercise, so she's always concerned about her weight. She's also an over achiever. Straight As ever since she can remember as well. She's also getting married in a year, so I get to go to Japan! She ALSO think I'm a failure, I'm spoiled, etc. She has a job at a rehab center.

The youngest sister, Angela, is 6 years older than me.
She's a lot like me in terms of stuff we do. We like staying at home most of the time unless something fun happens outside.
That being said, she is ALSO an over-achiever. Straight As as well. She doesn't have a job, but she wouldn't have have trouble finding one.

All of them have better grades than me.
See, the problem is, they work really hard, and I don't try at all.
They think I'm wasting my time when I'm using the computer.
I'm incredibly different from my sisters.
I've been told countless times the potential I wield if I only applied myself, blah blah blah. I have a wicked musical talent where I can pick up any instrument and play it well within a short period of time. I have a problem with authority. I don't like people telling me what to do, which is a no-no in any Asian household. I could go on, but I won't.

Now, my parents. =P
My dad is a 50 year old with a freelancer renovation job.
Sounds good, no?
It isn't. There's a chance that he won't get any work during times that people don't need shit to get done.
There's a story behind this too.
When I was little, we lived in Taiwan, and we had a SHITLOAD of money.
I'm talking 1 Million Dollars in USD.
But see, problem is, my dad is REALLY gullible, so he gave all that shit away, and we're now poor.

My mom is also 50 years old, and she expects a shit load of stuff from me. She expects me to work as hard as I can, stop screwing around, and telling me to change who I am.

Who the fuck does she think she is?
I'm not changing who I am just because she thinks that I should be doing shit the way she wants me to do shit.
I just want to enjoy myself, as that so hard to consider?
I told her I want to code shit when I grow up, and she said I should just do it as a hobby. Fuck her.

I just want to be me, and not some asian archetype. My family doesn't think that that's right.
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Oh right, I also have natural red hair, and am slightly obese.

So I'm going to say this clearly about my family and their stupid endeavors for me.

Fuck. That. SHIT.

That's what I want to change about myself.