From then till now.

So. I saw V's thread about 'the greatest misunderstanding you've ever had irl.' and then saw the flame wars going on in Basil.

And I started thinking about it and decided, "It's been long enough, I might as well explain myself about the whole Cappie-chan situation." I sincerely apologize for the catalyst I caused that lead to the destruction of the site, just for a few giggles, even if the site closed well over a year ago now. I didn't think shit would hit the fan as hard as it did. Although, I began with just a simple joke, that I thought would be in good fun for all, kind've blew up on me, leading to my ban and Captain deeming the site as 'too unprofitable and unruly'.

To start, I really didn't mean to upset the harmony our little community had. Just one day, I simply googled MMOT, trying to see if anyone within the community did anything note-worthy outside of it, and I stumbled upon the aboutus site. If you remember, I posted the info in good taste, I just simply posted screenshots, with addresses, phone numbers and other contact info blurred out so we wouldn't invade his privacy much; I never posted the link to where his information was. At this point, though, we were a bit livid with Captain, because he had neglected us and our site for so long. Maybe, in retrospect, I did it out of retaliation; to elicit a response, because I could not think of any other way. I think what really upset him was the fact that I posted it on Basil and MMOT at the same time. I never imagined he would take it so badly, going so far as to accuse me of 'betraying his trust'.

So, immediately after I posted this information, the fallout began. About an hour after posting, I received a message from Captain himself. I don't remember the exact details, but it was something about 'using personal information maliciously' and 'betraying his trust', reminding me that I didn't deserve to be a moderator on his sites.
I replied back that I was sorry that it upset him, but I was simply using public information, and I thought it would be funny. Wanting to prove a point, but not wanting to cause an uproar, he then stripped me of my moderator powers and said that I simply wasn't mature enough and fit to care for a site.

I have to stop at this point and tell everyone, I am human. I have human emotions, of anger and jealousy and rage, and to say otherwise is just ridiculous.

I felt like it was my sole job to keep the site together and protect it with everything I had, since my friends were all here, the people I had spent much time with in the past few years, and when I lost my powers, I felt useless and enraged almost. I thought, "How dare he do this to me? Now who will do the work I do?" It upset me more when I realized there were shadow moderators in my place, doing my work. To this day, I never learned who took my place in secret, who did Captain's dirty work when I no longer could.

As the weeks progressed, and Profil3 came onto the scene and began to develop more and more, I became more and more secluded. I visited the site daily, but I didn't post or blog anymore. I thought, why bother? It was at that point it kind've dawned on me that the end was near.

Profil3 was getting bigger and bigger, and our numbers at MMOT dwindled to two or three blogs a day. We took harshly to any sight of Captain, and the whole site fumed against him. But I never thought he would close the site with so little compassion, without any notice what so ever. '…We appreciate that this comes as a disappointment to you as we are similarly disappointed after all of the time and money from our own pockets that we've put into the site….' Are you serious? Do you really think that we care about your loss of anything? What we lost wasn't just a website, a packet of bits and bytes, but a community of friendship.

While, ultimately, Profil3 was probably the downfall of MMOT, I believe that it was also my insistence of having my way, turning everyone against Captain. Maybe he would've held out longer, given us more options, if we still liked him, instead of becoming the rogue website, out to defame and destroy the very thing that created our grounds.

So, what is the biggest misunderstanding I've ever had? Jokes, my friend, jokes.

Roll that music, and cheers to a new day,

~Mip

(P.S: Sorry for such a long blog! owo I guess my rambling does carry on.)