Life is never that great

Decided to go H.A.M. this weekend since it’s Thanksgiving.

4 days off, why not?

Thursday after school I went to buy some alcohol.
The idea was to get something other than 2 40’s since I always get those. So I got this other cheap thing,what was it called,Zanoff or some shit I don’t remember.
tasted aight, I had to drink it straight up since I didn’t have anything to mix with…

So I get home, and await my friend’s text saying I could come over. So I started drinking a bit.
Then finally, I get the text. Except it’s telling me to go to someone else’s house, meaning I’d have to take the city bus.

I hate taking the city bus drunk. I always feel like I have no idea where I am, and I hate it when old people stare at me.

Also, it smells like shit.

Do I go anyway, transferring over at the mall terminal to my next bus.

So I get there, and there’s a little gathering already assembled, Female-Nass was also there. Yeah, I haven’t talked about her in a while huh? She doesn’t go to my school anymore, so I never really see her.

I walked over to her and we started catching up. I chose my words carefully because I knew that when alcohol goes in, truth comes out, and that’s not good in this case.

I offered her some of my bottle, and she began drinking.
She pulled out a spliff, and I began smoking.
We kept talking, except now the topics were scattered. Personal, and general topics were all mashed together, and I slowly lost track of what was coming out of my mouth.

We stepped outside for a rig break (yeah,yeah I know I said I’d stop smoking cigarettes, but have you ever had one while drunk? Best thing ever)
Which somehow evolved into kissing and then we went back inside.

Only it didn’t end there, no matter what happened, I seriously couldn’t get enough of this girl.
She was into everything, digging her nails into my back,biting my ear lobe (which still puzzles me because my earrings are in the way), biting my neck,everything.

My friend interrupted us “No sex on the couch.” he said.
We both grinned, so we went back to drinking. And Female-Nass started getting the Twirlies, so I figured I should be the one to take her home.

Funny huh? I always bitch about being that guy that holds her hair back when she pukes, but I never do shit to change it.

Anyway, so I leave with her, and since it wasn’t such a bad night, we decided to walk. A 40min+ walk.
We didn’t even talk much, we could barely finish our sentences.
I brought her back to her place and wondered if I should go inside with her, I have no idea what her parents are like, or if she’d want me to go inside with her anyway.
So I stayed at the front gate and watched her sit on her front steps.
“You can go if you want.” She said, pulling a cigarette out of her purse.
I chuckled. “Folks don’t like to see you fucked up huh?”
She smiled. “I don’t give 2 shits about what they think.”

I thought about my parents, the vision of my mom shaking her head and calling me out on my lifestyle.

I walked over to the steps. “I don’t give a shit either. Mind if I stay a while?”
She moved over, giving me a spot to sit on.

And there we sat until the sun rose, smoking cigarettes and talking.

And thus concludes my story.
I’m done blogging. I have nothing left to say, nothing I have left to share.
And if I ever need to vent I’ll just stick to smoking weed and chilling out.

I’m not leaving the site, so don’t be said. I’m just done posting. After like a million blogs (I think I deleted like 100+ before, and I already made them all back) it’s just yea…

Peace

-Nass