Another year has passed… ~sigh~

Well. I told myself that I should at least write a blog once a year for as long as I use this site. And what better time to write a blog than at the start of a new year? I probably will write another blog between the time of now and December but who knows. Lots can happen in 12 months. So to play it safe, why not a blog on January 1st? (technically January 2nd, but give me a break. I came home late and missed the 1st. It's just 2 hours into the second day)

Well first off, Happy New Years guys and gals. Congrats. You made it past another year. And of course congrats to you, planet Earth for surviving another year. Ya know, it actually felt kind of special when it was transitioning between 2010 and 2011. There seemed to be a spark of excitment in myself when I was counting down. And then after the countdown I was like, meh. Okay so now what? The rest of the day, I didn't feel that special excitement. It just felt like another Saturday with a party and gathering or two.

And I just feel crappy right now, leading to rants. Skip the rants if you are in a cheery mood.

OKay. First Rant

It's probably just me but my New Years and Christmas has been getting gloomy and boring. Sure there were gatherings and parties before and after those special dates but ON the actual day, I did nothing, or at least nothing memorable. Nothing that fitted my definition of Christmas or New Years. See, during my childhood I had great family gatherings dring these holidays. Relatives and friends would be together and having a blast. As a child I couldn't give the slightest care for the "specialness" of the event as I was having a blast. Things have changed since then. Sure I go to parties and gatherings but nowhere were they as fun or as numerous. I understand where the fun has gone as growing up has lessened that part. Yup, growing up and maturing sucks. Wait what. Maturing? Me? Ha nevermind that! But anyways. But the traditions of having a great gathering and such died pretty much when my grandfather and great grandfather passed. Connections got lost and so did other relatives wether from passing away or moving or both. Gatherings in my grandprents grand house (or at least bigger than mine) shrunk over time to my grandmothers apartment she rents. These holidays are dying for me. I remember reading a french article about this family's french Christmas traditions that would pass generation to generation. I found the article to warm my heart and then I reflected on my dying traditions. (I only do reflections while showering for some reason). And well. That made me sad. I guess everyone has to cope with changes but still…

And seriously? Another rant? This day just seems so gloomy.

A forenight ago at a friends house, he introduced me to a few games. I am both a console and PC gamer bt my PC has been dead for oh… a year? Getting a new laptop with some gaming capabilities in January after CES. Don't want to fix my broken (sorta) PC because of all the damned bad memories it's given me. I am writing an assignment. Crash. Surfing the web. crash. Gaming (in low settings). crash. Master- nevermind. but it ended in a crash too. SO MANY BAD MEMORIES. CURSE YOU DAMNED DESKTOP. So I left it for dead somewhere.

But I digress. My friend plays free to play games with microtransactions and stuff so he showed me a few to play together on his pcs. We had fun and all with games like Genisis AD and others. Then he showed me Dekaron. At first I was reluctant as it was an MMORPG. But I got around to playing it and it was okay.

And then I realized something the next day in the shower. Again with the shower thing. I Always disliked MMORGPs. But I realized it was because I never had someone to play with me. Sure Playing with a friend over the Internet was one thing. Playing next to one is another. And then not playing with one is another thing. And then playing with strangers is- okay you get the point. My earliest PC gaming was when I was younger playing pitiful games like… toddeler games. And thnen Adventure Quest when my friend showed me it. Okay, it wasn't so pitiful as it brought back good memories. Gunbound was next and there I learned gained a buddy list. It was a fun game and perhaps one day I shall elaborate if no one is completely bored. Maplestory and Rakion were next follwed by smaller RPGs. Rakion was where I had an unlimited buddy list and added random people like how one does on Facebook (I don't actually have Facebook- YEah!). It was fu but I wanted to elaborated on Maplestory.

(Damn, it's getting late so many grammar and toher mistakes!)

While Rakion was my most fun memories of an MMO, Maplestory seems to be my most important where I learned morals and lessons. Wait. They're the same thing. no? Like after being scammed. I learned to be more careful. Maplestory took my life away for a while. It was like super powerful drugs. Or perhaps just like normal drugs. Or perhaps just like smoking. Or perhaps- okay you get the point. I was so addicted tht I even didn't I didn't realize my grandfather had cancer and… well msuhy story for another time. But yeah this MMORPG stuff was strong stuff. (Don't let little kids touch this stuff). But how this game was different from others i played was the 20 buddy list cap (has it changed? it's been so long) I had to chose wisely. The guild was like an extension. But good thing will always come to an end. My buddies quit. I Remember my first guild, Benchwarmers it was called, started well. Complete chaos later when it seemed the Jr. masters kicked everbody out that was lower ranked. Completely ruined the guild casuing me to leave. It happened to me again while I was in an incredible guild. Don't remember the name but it was the most memorable with so many group stuff. I don't want to elaborate on the guild at this time..

I guess it was the lack of friends playing and such that led me to quit.
So the moral? If you can't stand grinding and all that MMO stuff, get a friend. It should be much more fun. If not? Then MMO aren't for you.
I found a friend for this new MMO but i still am reluctant to go bck to MMOs. I just don't feel i'm a MMO guy…

Well that 's enough ranting for today. I hope that didn't make you guys and gals all foul and such. I don't exactly want to spread negativity on the first (second) day of the year.

BUt anyways, Happy new years
My new years resolutions? Finsih FInal fantsay 13. So bad… i've had that game since the release dATE…

… and you guys?

Have a great 2011.