Love. Screw it.

Before I start, thanks to everyone on msn chat who gave me advice on what to do. With my crush. And thanks for the guides. 😛

So here is the update on that:

I told him on Wednesday, as you all know…

And yesterday, (Thursday) I finally got the nerve to go up and talk to him. We kinda just stood there, staring blankly. Then, I just came right out and said it:

"I like you, but do you like me back?" I regret saying that. I should have known he'd reject me, but I still told him.

This is what he said back: "Uh, I don't really like you back like that. Can we just be friends?"
Me: "Yes.."
Him: "Its just too awkward."
Me: "Yep…"
So by this time my friends walk over to me and pull me away and ask all these questions, like : Are you guys going out? Does he like you? OH YOU GUYS ARE SO CUTE TOGETHER!

Thats when I answered, "No. He doesn't like me back." They all stopped talking and started saying things like, "Oh don't worry hes a man hoar anyways!" "Hes gay, thats why!" "Don't worry, don't cry, hes not worth it."

I was so grateful for them being with me and by my side, I was VERY heart broken. (After being through heartbreaks since I started the crush phase in grade 5, I was pretty tired of it) I cried, but my other friend, (I'll call her K) who wasn't there that day, called one my friend's cell phone. My friend gave the phone to me.

I'm like : "Hey K. Guess what? Jeremy doesn't like me. He said no."
Shes like: WHAT?! REALLY?! THAT %!&#$!
Me: Yep. But whatever……
Her: I'm sorry Aarthi! Don't worry, let him go like some other shitty girls, and then when he comes back to the one person that actually likes him, YOU can say no!
Me: Thanks! Come over to my house on Monday alright? Bye.
I hung up and my friends continued to cheer me up.
I felt better and didn't think about it the rest of the day. It was hard though, since hes in my class, and I saw him all the time. I cried once in class because I was thinking of this sad song.
But anyways, I feel better, and I can't wait to go to my weekend camp for Air Cadets.
Its called FTX (Field Training Exercise). I'm leaving today, and coming back on Sunday. Its supposed to be really fun, so I can't wait!

Thanks for all the support, again!

~~~~spigurl!~~~~
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