My body is disgusting.
And it makes me want to throw up every time I see it.
One thing I'd change about myself is my body. I hate it. Hate it!
This is my first QoTW. I dunno what it even stands for, or if I'm even doing it right, but oh well. o.o
Every since I could remember, I've had a life long hatred of my own body. I'm terribly ashamed of it. I want to be tough and bold and tomboyish. But I have to admit that I have that stupid girly hatred of my own body. I don't even have the courage to wear certain types of clothing without being afraid of what people will think.
Damn it all for being Hispanic.
Why do I have this stupid insecurity? Well it all started when I was younger. I was watching a comedy show and they started talking about girls who weren't waxed. I laughed until that part because I realized they were making fun of me.
"Nobody like a girl with hair down there!"
They say things about how gross it is and how unappealing and unattractive it is.
Then it makes me feel bad because it's true.
… I mean, I can't believe I'm even telling you guys this. This is so embarrassing, I want to headdesk until my head explodes.
I'm really hairy. That's just how Hispanic girls look like. However, unlike the majority of them, I don't care to do whatever is needed to look good. I mean, I tried shaving down there once, but it was so itchy and uncomfortable. Never again.
Do. Not. Want.
So I wear baggy clothing all the time to hide myself. But sometimes I want to dress like a girl too and I can't because I'm so disgusted at how I look like.
I have a boyfriend, which in itself is a miracle that I even got one, but I hate the way I look so much, that I'm scared to stare at him for long periods of time because I'm afraid he might notice how gross my face looks like.
It's fucking annoying when girls constantly come up to you asking if they can do a makeover on you. I always feel like punching them in the face. How dare you say that!? If you think, I'm ugly, just say that I am and don't rub it in my face like that. I don't want your fucking help! Take your makeover and shove it up your ass!
It's an insult I tell you. I KNOW I'm ugly! I don't actually need anyone to tell me what I already freaking know.
I wish my body wasn't this hairy. I wish it could be clean and smooth and thin. I wish my skin wasn't ugly looking. I wish I didn't have hair on my arms and stuff. I wish I had long flowing straight beautiful hair, perfect white teeth, perfect breasts, bright greenish blue eyes. I wish people would admire how pretty I look. I wish my nose wasn't so long! I'm tired of people calling me "Pinocchio".
I actually really envy Asian girls. All of them look so cute and pretty. No wonder all the guys are always wanting to be with one.
I want to wear a skirt without being scared.
I want people to stop telling me how ugly I am when I already know!
I hate watching shows that depict how disgusting a girl is when they looks like that. It shatters my self confidence. I hate going to the beach and seeing all those stupid girls running around in their stupid bikinis and stupid one pieces, looking nice and perfect. No hair or anything.
But I always have to go there with shorts and a shirt on because my body won't allow me to wear a bikini, or even a one piece for that matter.
It's depressing…
Maybe if I were prettier, I'd have more confidence.
The End
Now I'm gonna go take a shower and wash this stupid body of mine.
Stupid body.
'Till next time.
~Jaz
16 Comments
Yeah that whole body image thing is becoming a problem in today’s society. Just believe in yourself.
QoTW= Question of The Week.
I think o.0
Don’t let the stupid media get to you, you’re beautiful too <3
People wax nowadays.
I tried a wax strip once on my leg.
Owie.
Owie.
wat
Long hair is attractive IMO 😐
Oh wait… you’re talking about THAT hair…
All girls have hair down there. So dont worry so much about that 😛
If they dont its simply because they waxed it.
Lack of lower-region hair is overrated. Srsly.
This.
I don’t want to have to resort to that. It hurts and I shouldn’t have to. :/
Well, you can think of it this way.
A one time fee of pain, for about a month or two of smooth skin. Or however long. Iunno. ._.
Shaving is zero pain, unless you nick yourself, but bits of itchiness now and then, and little tiny hairs. 😐
IUNNO IT SELLS ITSELF!
It’s made in Germany! You know the Germans make good stuff!
ShamWax!
This.
That.
Seriously. Don’t let what other people think affect you.
Wear mismatched shoes, and perhaps you’ll find that the next person to notice is someone who’ll be kind.
Not all Asian girls are cute… those are just the ones in the media. >.>;;
But yeah, media pressure is really hard to endure; I used to wear long-sleeved stuff all the time before I just said “screw this” and became completely apathetic regarding other peoples’ opinions. Of course, it always helps if you’re surrounded by nice people. .__.;;
Hairy armz?
*hugs* i know EXACTLY how you feel! I have really hairy legs cause i tried shaving once and failed Dx i wasnt gonna wear capris, shorts, skirts, or anything else except long jeans for like, ever. but then i said screw it when i got this pair of capris i really like =3