The End

I'm so weak.

But that why you guys have to be strong. I decided to come back and make a surprise blog because I had an epiphany of sorts you could say.
I'll try to make this short since I'm taking care of a baby now. Aw, hell, who am I kidding? It'll be long anyway.

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And no, it's not my child. It's Anthony's niece.
If you're wondering about what happened, or if you even care that much, he ended up calling me up the next day and apologized for acting like a douchebag. It was a misunderstanding. We talked it out, and things are back to normal. I'll blog about it some other time.

It's time for me to stir up the spirit in you.

We guys have been together for so long now. You guys might think this is stupid. I mean, Nass might laugh and call me a retard for thinking this way, but some of you know, I consider you guys as family and that's how I'm able to tell so much. It's the internet, but even so, it gives me the feeling of having a family that my parents could never give me. I have friends here that kept me sane because I have no real friends in real life. Who knows what kind of homicidal maniac I would have become if I couldn't put my feelings into words and write a bunch of blogs about it. If you guys ask, I'll tell. That's who I am. I love writing about my hardships in the hope that it might give you guys the confidence or advice you need to get through your own hardships. You guys didn't throw me away like everyone else did.

Don't let the drama llama ruin everything.

People are starting to have their doubts about his site. But some people put their blood sweat and tears into rebuilding the community they cherished so much. I love this site, no, rather I love the people on this site, and I'll probably always try to find a way to blog whether it's about games or my personal life. I'll do it because I know some of you will listen and just that fact alone gives me solace. So what if VuTales isn't MMOTales? I don't care about the way the site looks or anything. As long as the people are here and are still the same. I understand people grow up and stuff, but some of you guys worked too hard for this. Why give up now? I quit, but that doesn't mean that just because I quit that everyone should question the site and our bonds. I said I'm quitting, but I didn't say I'm quitting forever now did I?

I'm sorry, but I'll have to name names.

Nass. I'm sorry that you feel that way. I'm sorry that sometimes the drama is too much for you. But I can't really say anything other than if you dislike the way things are, you can always leave us behind. We're your friends here whether you like it or not. Even if you never meant for any of us to become attached to you, we still did. Because you were being yourself. Asshole or not, you're still a great person deep down inside who just wants to have fun. I'm not implying that I know you, but I'm sorry, you're not just another user on the internet to me, you're my friend. The dice have been cast and I feel just a teensey bit bad that you consider us as no more than just other people. I know it sounds stupid, but I'm a very emotional person and there are so many things wrong with me. Even if you didn't want to tell me anything about yourself, I'd still tell you everything about me because I still trust you even if you do not trust me. Don't be afraid of dramas. It's natural, people fight. But if they are strong enough to get through it okay, than everything will be all right.

Vusys. You're right. VuTales and MMOTales aren't the same thing. But I don't think the site is what makes everything, I think it's the people. I could have easily disregarded this site and the millions of invites that people sent me. It was touching. So many invites meant that people really wanted me here and I felt like I belonged. I wasn't stuck with a bunch of idiots online. At least here I can have a nice intelligent conversation with someone. And you're a great admin. You don't act all high and mighty. You're just like the rest of us. You blog like the rest of us. You don't hide away in some dark corner, sitting on your throne. You're super cool and I'm comfortable with you as an admin here.

David. You worked so hard for the Maplestory servers you created to bring everyone together. I totally agree with you. If people abandoned VuTales, where would I go to blog about my daily life or my gaming experiences? Who else would listen to me to make me feel better even if just a little? Even if I found another site, it wouldn't be the same. I've become too attached here. Even if people did listen and comment, it still wouldn't feel the same.

C'mon people. Pull yourselves out of this slump. It feels like the world ended here. People feel so sad and yeah, I know it sounds retarded. "How can she tell if people are sad? It's the fucking interenet for Christ's sake!"
I dunno, but I do. It sure feels that way anyway.
Nass says he liked it better before anyone knew him. Well I say I liked it better when everyone was happy and didn't let stupid drama shit ruin anything. Especially their hope.
We've come too far. Way too far. I don't want to turn back now.

I'll shut up now.

Have a great day, you guys.

~Jaz