Here’s my life story….just kidding!
Growing up, I was always the tough tomboy that would be like one of the guys. I talked like a guy. I dressed like one. I even looked like one if I really wanted to. No one would ever tell the difference. I was treated as if I were a guy as well. My male friends would punch me in the shoulder or talk to me about girls they’ve slept with and it didn’t gross me out one bit. In fact, if it was funny, I’d laugh. I never bothered me if they thought I was a girl or a boy, I guess. As long as they were my friends. Who knows? Maybe them not knowing I was a girl was probably for the best anyway.
I was so much like a guy, and so used to having guy friends, that I found that being friends with girls was so….boring. Usually they talked about their looks, about guys, latest trends, going to a party or something stupid like that. But while they thought about those things, I thought about video games, staying at home, peace and quiet, anime, pepsi and food. Delicious, delicious food…
So I never liked hanging out with them. Besides, they always said the same things to me.
“Liek omgz, let us liek…givez u a makeovurr.”
And then I would respond with: “How about I give you a makeover with my fist, girlie?”
The only times anyone would noticed I was a girl or be reminded I was a girl were those rare times I actually dressed like a girl. Sometimes I would do it for the lulz, but more often than not, I would attract unwarranted attention. So it’s extremely rare that I dress that way. I’m more comfortable when my body isn’t being strangled to death by tight clothing anyway.
If you’re wondering how they never noticed I was a girl despite my large breast size, it was because I wear a lot of baggy clothing and hoodies and they conceal my chest well. Very effectively.
I’d consider myself a really boring person too I guess. I mean, I’m not a fan of big parties. I just find all the racket and annoying drunk people just so irritating. I have little patience so I prefer not to go unless I’m obligated to. I’d rather just have small quiet get togethers. Drive around a bit and go to different places and hang out and chill. Or sitting around playing games together until our fingers bleed.
I fail at dancing anyway and I don’t like embarassing myself at parties like that and I hate being the wall flower.
I can make dirty jokes with guys and they’d laugh. If I did that with girls they would just look at me funny. I can scratch my ass, pick my nose, fart AND pick my wedgies around guys and they wouldn’t be bothered about it. They’d laugh when I’d fart though but we do that with everyone who farts. I can eat the way I want to. Because we all eat messy and we all love stuffing our faces with food. I’m a petit girl with a fat chick appetite. Heh. I have a pretty dirty mouth too and I curse a lot.
Despite all that, I still have some tendencies that bring out my more feminine side.
Like…I’m afraid of spiders. Especially big hairy turantulas or spiders with really super thin legs and are all long and stuff. *Shiver*
And I’m scared of roller coasters and I have virtigo. I also despise the feeling of falling. It almost makes me cry.
I’m a very sensetive person so I get my feelings hurt easily but I’m also as stubborn as a mule.
I’m also really shy around people I don’t know and I get nervous when I’m traveling alone in areas I don’t know.
I’m scared of driving too. My sense of direction is a big heaping pile of doggy doo so I get lost easily, even around the corner from where I live.
I can’t do complicated math to save my life. So I’m basically somewhat of an idiot.
I like it when people talk to me and share their feelings with me so that I can better understand them because I believe communication is something vital in a relationship. Romantic or otherwise.
I really like animals and I want to own a big dog and a cat someday. I like sitting in beautiful grassy areas and parks and I love flowers. Lastly, I have a love for stuffed animals. Especially pillow pets. Just yesterday I went shopping for some food for the week with my boyfriend and I saw the boxes of pillow pets. I started jumping up and down begging him to buy it for me since I was buying the food. He didn’t want to at first but he gave in. I sleep with it every day now. I got the blue dolphin. <3
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Does that make me weird? That I’m a 20 year old tomboy with a secret love for stuffed animals?
Well I am a GIRL after all I suppose. But it so fucks up my tough girl image. Not that I’d want to keep up an image for myself anyway. I don’t care much for that. Some people have said that I’m the perfect ideal girlfriend for a guy. Because I can relate to any dude and have the same likes to the point where a guy can be comfortable around me but feminie enough where he doesn’t feel gay and can feel like he can take care of me and be all manly with me. Which I would like of course.
What do you guys think?
‘Till next time.
~ Jaz
22 Comments
Like that karate girl in TWGoK.
I want to be a littl…no I’ll stop myself there.
Chicks with dicks?
Or Yui in TWGoK. In the manga she has some pretty weird changes.
For our half-year anniversary thing, my girlfriend got me a dog pillow pet but on the same day, a close girl that is a friend got me the same thing as a going away present because I’m leaving in 2 months. It was extremely awkward. I ended up giving away the close girl that is a friend’s pillow pet and telling my lover that I didn’t want anyone’s but hers.
o.O ?
You should have told her to take it back and get you a unicorn pillow pet. then you would have had 2 of them!
*Squee~* <3
o.O ?
I said I’ll stop myself there >l
o.O ?
I said I’ll stop myself there >l
But I wanna know what you were gonna say! D:
Animal pillows aside, there was nothing feminine about that list.
Crap, are pillow pets feminine now?
🙁
did sum1 say breasts
Wow, what a ball buster you are, eh?
I never said those things were exactly feminine. I said they bring out MY feminine side. Instead of squashing a bug like a normal tomboy, I shriek like a little bitch. xD I still blush and get all baaaaaw when a guy compliments me. And how is talking about your feelings and being all lovey-dovey not feminine?
I dunno, I guess we just have completely seperate theories on what’s girly(what girls would normally do) and what isn’t. I think hardcore tomboys have no female tendencies. Like Lightning from FF13. Besides the way she dresses.
Yes.
Crap, are pillow pets feminine now?
🙁
Psh. Ch’yeah.
Wow, what a ball buster you are, eh?
I never said those things were exactly feminine. I said they bring out MY feminine side. Instead of squashing a bug like a normal tomboy, I shriek like a little bitch. xD I still blush and get all baaaaaw when a guy compliments me. And how is talking about your feelings and being all lovey-dovey not feminine?
I dunno, I guess we just have completely seperate theories on what’s girly(what girls would normally do) and what isn’t. I think hardcore tomboys have no female tendencies. Like Lightning from FF13. Besides the way she dresses.
I meant no disrespect. It was just that the things listed were understandably rational (or, as may be my case, disturbingly irrational) fears, natural tendencies toward social relationships, personality traits, and occasional ineptitudes. I believe that they were not so much traits that affiliate one to a gender, but rather qualities that perhaps did not fit the tomboy personality that you may have established yourself. They weren’t necessarily tomboyish, but they weren’t quite feminine either. I, for one, am probably anything but feminine, but do have tendencies to sympathize with such concepts as love, friendships, etc., and am willing to incite a sparkling conversation if it may persist. By the end of it, I would have felt no less masculine, no more feminine, and probably none changed other than any knowledge that I may have discovered.
For me specifically, I do treat girls and guys differently. I do show more respect to girls regardless of their personality or appearance. I just don’t like those girls who present themselves as “vulnerable and helpless”; the types that always… beg and ask for help? And they do it for attention, which some guys love, but I’d rather have a girlfriend that’s more intelligent and can handle some things on her own.
uhh as for tight clothing, my shirts and jeans are kinda tight o_O not like skin skin tight like spandex, but just tight kuz its the new style around and I get to show off some buff-ness ;D
Ya know, sometimes personality is just enough for someone to truly like you. Sometimes it doesn’t happen immediately, but give it some time. Perhaps on of your guy friends have a crush on you. The only problem is that if that secret was to get to you, there will be a curtain of awkwardness for sure. After you clear that, everything’s good? (in my case, yea ;D )
I’m not sure if you do watch this, but there’s a show called “Canada’s worst handyman” and one of the judges are a girl, and she’s pretty manly considering she can do more handiwork than me and my dad put together yet she’s married xD I saw her lifting a whole piece of drywall all by herself… something I can’t do =.=
PS: I like stuffed animals too. I got Donald, Louy Huey and Duey on the left side of my bed =) [ costed a fortune tho at the disney store… ]
lol u fart
Crap, are pillow pets feminine now?
🙁
Psh. Ch’yeah.
…..dammit.
Wow, what a ball buster you are, eh?
I never said those things were exactly feminine. I said they bring out MY feminine side. Instead of squashing a bug like a normal tomboy, I shriek like a little bitch. xD I still blush and get all baaaaaw when a guy compliments me. And how is talking about your feelings and being all lovey-dovey not feminine?
I dunno, I guess we just have completely seperate theories on what’s girly(what girls would normally do) and what isn’t. I think hardcore tomboys have no female tendencies. Like Lightning from FF13. Besides the way she dresses.
I meant no disrespect. It was just that the things listed were understandably rational (or, as may be my case, disturbingly irrational) fears, natural tendencies toward social relationships, personality traits, and occasional ineptitudes. I believe that they were not so much traits that affiliate one to a gender, but rather qualities that perhaps did not fit the tomboy personality that you may have established yourself. They weren’t necessarily tomboyish, but they weren’t quite feminine either. I, for one, am probably anything but feminine, but do have tendencies to sympathize with such concepts as love, friendships, etc., and am willing to incite a sparkling conversation if it may persist. By the end of it, I would have felt no less masculine, no more feminine, and probably none changed other than any knowledge that I may have discovered.
You’re right.
My list does sound like crap though but those things help define me as a girl I suppose. I mean, those qualities may be common with guys in some places, but where I live, if I guy has any tendencies like that, they are automatically thrown into the homosexual category, which I think is wrong and immoral for a man to be judged like that. My boyfriend used to be like that. He used to talk to me. Want to know everything about me. Everything changed as soon as he got into my pants. Then all of a sudden, he thinks he’s so masculine. It’s ridiculous.
Crap, are pillow pets feminine now?
🙁
Psh. Ch’yeah.
…..dammit.
At least they are still cuddly and cute?
;D
Wow, what a ball buster you are, eh?
I never said those things were exactly feminine. I said they bring out MY feminine side. Instead of squashing a bug like a normal tomboy, I shriek like a little bitch. xD I still blush and get all baaaaaw when a guy compliments me. And how is talking about your feelings and being all lovey-dovey not feminine?
I dunno, I guess we just have completely seperate theories on what’s girly(what girls would normally do) and what isn’t. I think hardcore tomboys have no female tendencies. Like Lightning from FF13. Besides the way she dresses.
I meant no disrespect. It was just that the things listed were understandably rational (or, as may be my case, disturbingly irrational) fears, natural tendencies toward social relationships, personality traits, and occasional ineptitudes. I believe that they were not so much traits that affiliate one to a gender, but rather qualities that perhaps did not fit the tomboy personality that you may have established yourself. They weren’t necessarily tomboyish, but they weren’t quite feminine either. I, for one, am probably anything but feminine, but do have tendencies to sympathize with such concepts as love, friendships, etc., and am willing to incite a sparkling conversation if it may persist. By the end of it, I would have felt no less masculine, no more feminine, and probably none changed other than any knowledge that I may have discovered.
You’re right.
My list does sound like crap though but those things help define me as a girl I suppose. I mean, those qualities may be common with guys in some places, but where I live, if I guy has any tendencies like that, they are automatically thrown into the homosexual category, which I think is wrong and immoral for a man to be judged like that. My boyfriend used to be like that. He used to talk to me. Want to know everything about me. Everything changed as soon as he got into my pants. Then all of a sudden, he thinks he’s so masculine. It’s ridiculous.
I doubt those qualities are that common with adolescent males of the teenage years; most “men” (unfortunately) think that they have more mass in their pants than in their brain. Least, around my neighborhoods. Still, perhaps my own perspective on the matter may have swayed my thoughts; I seldom make hasty assumptions, and so am usually considerate to others when they speak their mind. Sometimes it can be difficult to paint a picture so black-and-white as masculine and feminine, especially when the world around us changes like cell phone technology. I choose not to see things that way; makes more friends, makes less enemies.