Party time in Whistler….NOT!

Sup…

I'm in Whistler (u know what fuck my spelling i been running on 20 mins- 3 hours of sleep a night for the last 4 days now) for the 2010 olympics and i thought I would be the last person to be in what everyone calls party capital of British Columbia. I got a job directing buses in the staging area, thats standing and walking around waving to bus drivers and tellingthem to go here or there and them ignoring my signals and me looking like a dumbass in front of everyone else. My shift goes from 5am to 4pm every day, but we get free breakfast and lunch which is nice. We get free accomodation in hotels etc. all the traffic controllers are living in a cruise ship down in Squamish and I heard that ship is nothing more than a giant can full of shit. they have to pass a checkpoint just to go on and off the damn ship and are only allowed to do so when a shuttle bus is ready to take them up here/ And I LOL at all the people who paid to be here. some guy said he pays $850 a NIGHT!
If I didnt have a job here I sure as helll wouldnt be in Whistler. Too many rich people, snobs etc. and all the free concerts are so paced the center of Whistler Village was like a big gigantic sardine can. it was so packed that people shoving through this human gridlock some parent got separated from her kid and she went missing…i hope not. Because of my shifts being so long and my douche bag roomates keeping me up all night, I'm so tired i wanna cry. But I got lucky because I almost got stuck on the gondola on the mountain for the night, 2000 feet up. but they didnt shut it down, it was just like a 10 mminute test and that scared me. The fucking noob at the station at the bottom didnt know the mountain was closed for the day and said I could check it out. On the way back down this lady was like
"HEY you're not supposed to be here, If I didnt see you on the way up, you woulda been stuck up there for the night"

its 2am and about 3 hours before I have to go to work and I JUST ABSOLUTEMY FUCKING LOVE HOW I CAN'T SLEEP AT ALL!!!
I hate all my roiomates theyre all douchebags. I'm being nice to them because theyre letting me use their laptop. The Whistler Library is closed for the olympics so I cant use the computers there.
2 of them are these rowdy party people who just wanna fucking drink and all that shit they talk like gangsters etc and theres this girl here with a loud voice here withthem. They all got the 12 noon – 11 pm shift. fuckers changed it after we were assigned a place to live and given details on our shifts. The last room mate is this chinese guy who's english is so accented I can hardly understand him and in the second room where he sleeps he breathes so loud I cant sleep so I'm on the couch out here. and it's TOO FUCKING SHORT!!!!

I told these guys and they're like "Well move your shit to the other bedroom so we can use the living room." Yeah so they could use the sound system in here and keep me and the chinese guy (his name is Man, he has the same shift as me) up all night. And the social climate (all party gotta be all that and have ego so u can be interesting to people and score with girls), I'm no good at it.

This one guy Emir and me were on Lot 5, where the extra shuttle buses park when there's no space in the main lot. He's sitting on his ass all day listening to his gay R&B music or he's in one of the shuttle buses sleeping. He's all cocky and just and idiot. He threw a heat pack at the traffic controller who was with us because she wouldn't give him her number or something, and later he's like "Yeah man this sux everyone calls me a jerk n shit"
NO SHIT SHERLOCK

And it jhust happens I see him talking to another girl who didnt appear to be a ditz or a skank and theyre making plans to spend the night together. WTF??
Like serously all these guys can go out and some how impress girls like that or hook up with them and all I get is a traffic controller friend who I can only see at the intersection by the bus loop before her supervisor picks her up and takes her to where they live. and she doesnt want to hang out because she's dead tired after a half-day shift like me. And we can't even talk because she has to stop or yell at all the fucking idiots who walk accross ignoring the lights and her sign and risk getting smoked by speeding buses.

Seriously that is sp depressing, I know I'm only here cause I have a job and I know it should not be on my to-do list to party or even spend time with anyone other than the people I chill with all day at Lot 5. And yet somehow everyone around me has this entitlement or unspoken privelege to go have fun, screw etc.

K, if no one else on the bus staging crew was partying, etc I'd be fine but they are at the end of the day and by the time my shift ends, my brain ceases to function and I become half retarded and my feet hurt like hell and it still occurs to me i need to be responsible and go to sleep. So I spend the last hour of daylight walking around the village then I get up to the bus loop and catch a bus back to the hotel.

What I hate about seeing guys and girls (workforce ppl, not the rich-ass vacationers) hooking up or flinging so easily is that it seems its not gonna happen for me and while most guys can meet fling with or date nice girls, it feels like I'm gonna see none of it and later end up with a crappy girlfriend who will just be a control-freak and enemy more than anything, and seing that dumbass Emir hookingup with that girl so easily or other guys telling about how they met girls etc just reminds me of all this shit. They got the confidence etc and I'm not at the best stage in life where it shines in me so easily. and it feels like I'm chained down (all the happy confident 'all-that' no-such thing as problems people are so ignorant they think depression/anxiety doesnt exiist) by sense of responsibility (work+sleep=no life), and my own moral constraints (I had a one-nighter with this woman last year and all I got out of it was a guilt trip because I got that close to her just like that and apparently I didn't respect my own boundaries…) such as just meet a nice girl who's an actual close friend as well as a partner (in friends-with-benefits or actual relationship) then have cex with her and it will be more enjoyable and fulfilling (<— right now that too feels like a far off privelege i'm not entitled to 🙁 ).

All I wanted during my job hunt was just a job where I work 6-8 hours and then go home, do what I want) and the only job was bus staging here. It's nice tho, being where everyone pays THOUSANDS of dollars a week to be here and not having to pay a cent. And I got a blue coat out of it. I'm so envious of my buddy Mike, he's got an Olympic job too but its back in burnaby, like 10 minute bus ride from his house. He gets to go home and play wow after work. That's all he does is play wow. He's got a paladin with i think a gear score over 90000….no 6k i think. He's gotr a hot girlfriend who's really nice and kind hearted, and instead of spending Valentines day with her her gets on his comp and tanks a huge raid in ICC. I'm not that obsessed with wow and cant even play more than 2 hours a day. I'm out doing stuff….How the hell does he end up with a nice girlfriend???

fuck the laws of cupid, in fact fuck cupid too. It would be so great to see him get shot down by a .50 caliber high powered sniper rifle.

Anyhoar Im going to salvage the last 90 minutes of sleep time before I gotta walk down to work and stand in the freezing cold. my eyes hurt so much right now.

Anyways Im done bitching. IF you think Whistler is all cracked up to be, like Party Central, etc. ITS NOT THAT CRACKED UP TO BE. Even if you're a skiier/snowboarder, you have to be filthy rich just to set foot on any mountain. unless you got the accreditation pass then everythings 50 percent off. To actually get the party central experience of whistler you need to be:
+rich
+knowing a family member/friend who lives up here
+in a huge group of friends because nobody comes up here on their own
+wanting to drink and be rowdy
+active all night
+a skiier/snowboarder (hardcore mountain biker in the summer)
+have social skill/confidence level (or fake it ability) of over 9000
+have absoultely zero issues or problems in your life that would make you anything but happy.
+Australian (there's a shit load of Aussies up here who love to ski and snowboard. they're still friendly people tho)
+reaDY to score if your single and have good memories totake home. must not have moral constraints unless you're married or have an actual gf)
+not be a nerd/geek at all. (people who play WoW/magic, DA artists, fanfic writers, video gamers,) The social climate here doesnt permit that. Those people will just get shut down if they try to engage in conversations with others.
ex: "..yeah, I played Call of Duty 6. used to play WoW-" gets cut off when big ego guy comes in [/]
"SO HOW 'YALL LIKING THE SLOPES TODAY? I GOT ME SNOWBOARD. I WENT TO AUSTRLIA NEW ZEALAND EUROPE ANTARCTICA THE MOON AND WORKED AND STUDIED IN ALL PLACES I WENT TO AND MET A TONE OF FASCINATING PEOPLE/ IM STUDYING [enter name of complicated cuthroat expensive school progream here) AND IM GONNA HAVE AN AWESOME CAREER AND IM GONNA LIVE UP HERE WHISTLER IS GREATR ITS MY FAV PLACE ON THE WHOLE PLANET!|
[i] girl and other ppl ignore other guy and listen to ego maniac
"YEAH I WRESTLED A GRIZZLY BEAR WHO WAS TRYING TO TAKE MY LUNCH AND WAS A VOLUNTEER REFEREE IN KANGAROO BOXING FIGHTS. I SWAM WITH DEADLY BOX JELLYFISH AND I TRAVEL And I DONT GOTTA WORRY ABOUT GOING POOR BECAUSE EVERYTHING WORKS OUT GREAT. AND IM A DJ COME TO MY PARTY TONIGHT!"
nerd guy with a more regular calmer life leaves after realizing he cant compete with mr Snowboarder and goes to Greyhound bus stop. wants to go home where he can join people in a conversation over MAgic the Gathering or comics or WoW and actually fit in

OK maybe not like that but it still feels like it. Anyways I gotta stop before I hit the backspace button, reset this blog page and wipe out all I wriote, breake this laptop, cry then get ass kicked by drunken room mates/

Oh, and standing waving at oncoming buses with a pinched right nut, headache and bloodshot eyes is not fun.

peace