Boy… I missed this place

You all are awesome.

I’m absolutely blown away that this site is still as active as I remember it being a few years ago (last year? a few months ago? not sure… lost track of time) … And now I feel even worse for leaving.

Long introduction to my actual point begins here:

I recently found out you can download your entire Facebook history, every wall post, every photo, and every message you’ve ever received has been saved and is readily available to you with a few clicks. Needless to say I was tugboating excited. I spent the next hour or so reading through all my old wall posts, and boy was it interesting. I had no idea how weird I was freshman year… good thing I grew out of that. Right? 😉 I was so naive back then it was kind of ridiculous. I wasted so much time chasing after girls that were clearly not interested, and passed up on so many opportunities that literally just showed up on my wall.

But hindsight is always 20/20, right?

Every other status I posted was either me trying really hard to be clever or meaningful, most of my others were me trying to gain sympathy by posting something uncomfortably personal. I managed to track all of the major fights and fallouts I’ve had with my high school friends through old wall posts and messages, a lot of them I had completely forgot about. Apparently at one point I was really into ballroom dancing (who knew?).

It’s actually quite astounding what one can find while looking through old Facebook posts. What I wasn’t expecting, however, was for it to be so… depressing.

Long introduction to my actual point ends here:

I realized how easily friendships that meant the world to you can come and go so naturally, so naturally that you don’t even notice until years have gone by and you suddenly stumble across an old conversation thread and you wonder, “Wow, what ever happened to her/him?” I realized I’ve done that with all of you on MMOT, the one community of friends I could always count on to listen to my nonsense and actually care enough to listen and provide constructive, and not always kind, feedback. I miss that so much. I’ve missed you guys so much. I’m sorry I left for so long, even if nobody noticed, but I’m back now, and this time I don’t plan on going anywhere.

P.S. – This is as close as I’ve ever gotten to writing a drunken letter to an ex-girlfriend. I think I’ve just reached another milestone.